[Spike no he's not smart enough to figure it out!]
Ahh, well. Everyone tried, yeah? It sucks that we failed, but it's not like everyone gave up on me. When we didn't have a clear answer, I was the best choice to vote for. Besides, I'm sure someone will punch that person at least once when they get found out.
I'll give him a good punch to the throat from you, yeah?
[Figure what out... This isn't a confession, sir.]
...I get it, you know. I was never so close to the big man himself but I still got a demon under my skin. Everyone here says I'm so close to human but it's a lot harder when you've got evil in your veins than I think they can understand.
The only thing that kept me something resembling human is my love for a girl that's dead now and I had a chip in my head preventing me from killing everyone around me, including her. And now, I'm...
[He rubs his head. Erastis whines behind him and he gives the dog a bitter side-eye, before softening and sighing. He turns back to Rin.] I don't really do the whole moral judgement but from where I'm standing, I think you're a good kid.
Yeah. You're the one I figured would understand what was going on with me. I get some protection from complete takeover by being born a half demon, but...
[He is grateful to Spike for understanding him, even if it means Spike lives this kind of shitty existence too.]
He's telling me I should boss you around, you know. That since we're a 'prince of Hell' that makes you my subordinate and that I should order you to break me outta here. I'm not gonna, but that's just the kinda person he is.
[He let's out a huff of a laugh there, like he's amused by the situation.]
He's even more short-sighted than me, if you can believe that.
Seems like you've probably got some good influences too. I never had anyone telling me not to swandive my way into evil.
[He snorts at that.]
He gets that we're a completely different clan of demon from entirely different worlds, yeah? [He just shakes his head. Ancient demons are always entitled weirdos, same goes for their direct demonic offspring.]
What can I say? Sometimes the man who fathered you is an asshole, but you luck out by getting adopted by the best Dad in the world.
[He's a bit mournful as he talks now. He really misses his dad at times like this.]
I don't know what he was thinking. A priest, raising the bastard son of Satan? But he must've had his reasons, yeah? Where everyone else saw a tool of destruction, he saw an angry kid who needed to learn to be gentle and kind.
...Love's full of those irrational contradictions, innit? In all it's forms, really.
The slayer... she has a sister who was forcibly inserted into her memories and life, who presented a danger to the whole world, including everyone she knew and loved. She technically only knew the girl for about a year, but she still would've sacrificed everything to protect her.
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Date: 2021-10-24 02:58 am (UTC)Ahh, well. Everyone tried, yeah? It sucks that we failed, but it's not like everyone gave up on me. When we didn't have a clear answer, I was the best choice to vote for. Besides, I'm sure someone will punch that person at least once when they get found out.
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Date: 2021-10-24 09:17 am (UTC)[Figure what out... This isn't a confession, sir.]
...I get it, you know. I was never so close to the big man himself but I still got a demon under my skin. Everyone here says I'm so close to human but it's a lot harder when you've got evil in your veins than I think they can understand.
The only thing that kept me something resembling human is my love for a girl that's dead now and I had a chip in my head preventing me from killing everyone around me, including her. And now, I'm...
[He rubs his head. Erastis whines behind him and he gives the dog a bitter side-eye, before softening and sighing. He turns back to Rin.] I don't really do the whole moral judgement but from where I'm standing, I think you're a good kid.
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Date: 2021-10-24 12:12 pm (UTC)[He is grateful to Spike for understanding him, even if it means Spike lives this kind of shitty existence too.]
He's telling me I should boss you around, you know. That since we're a 'prince of Hell' that makes you my subordinate and that I should order you to break me outta here. I'm not gonna, but that's just the kinda person he is.
[He let's out a huff of a laugh there, like he's amused by the situation.]
He's even more short-sighted than me, if you can believe that.
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Date: 2021-10-24 01:51 pm (UTC)[He snorts at that.]
He gets that we're a completely different clan of demon from entirely different worlds, yeah? [He just shakes his head. Ancient demons are always entitled weirdos, same goes for their direct demonic offspring.]
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Date: 2021-10-24 02:12 pm (UTC)[He's a bit mournful as he talks now. He really misses his dad at times like this.]
I don't know what he was thinking. A priest, raising the bastard son of Satan? But he must've had his reasons, yeah? Where everyone else saw a tool of destruction, he saw an angry kid who needed to learn to be gentle and kind.
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Date: 2021-10-27 10:33 am (UTC)...Love's full of those irrational contradictions, innit? In all it's forms, really.
The slayer... she has a sister who was forcibly inserted into her memories and life, who presented a danger to the whole world, including everyone she knew and loved. She technically only knew the girl for about a year, but she still would've sacrificed everything to protect her.
[And did.]
He must have loved you a lot, kid.
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Date: 2021-10-28 12:29 am (UTC)[He sighs. What a mess.]
Well, I suppose I'll have a chance to ask him now, if I end up wherever he went.