[he curls a bit around Rin, letting him have his shoulder if he does end up crying. Allen himself is... a bit tense, mostly in a bid to keep from letting his own stressful emotions get the better of him.]
[He doesn't cry, miraculously. He comes close, his body jolting a few times like one does when they're sniffling and trying to bite back tears, but he manages to suppress the worst of the shudders.
And then, after a long pause-]
I killed my dad. In that other place, where I went with the others.
[Clarification on that is very important given that actual murders besides "CYOA is a fucking trip" happened.]
[doesn't change the fact that whatever happened made Rin think it was, but oh no that's one of Allen's trauma buttons, actually, and he needs to not so he can support Rin.]
Whatever happened, that wasn't what actually happened.
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Date: 2021-10-23 02:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-10-23 02:39 am (UTC)And then, after a long pause-]
I killed my dad. In that other place, where I went with the others.
[Clarification on that is very important given that actual murders besides "CYOA is a fucking trip" happened.]
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Date: 2021-10-23 05:16 am (UTC)[doesn't change the fact that whatever happened made Rin think it was, but oh no that's one of Allen's trauma buttons, actually, and he needs to not so he can support Rin.]
Whatever happened, that wasn't what actually happened.
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Date: 2021-10-23 08:16 pm (UTC)[Sometimes illusions are just that strong. Strong like Rin's grip on Allen's shoulders right now.]
I just- I can't do anything right, can I? I try and I try and I try, but things never turn out right.