Well, you saw it. And I've only gotten better at controlling him since then. He hasn't unexpectedly come out in weeks, the one time he got out it was because Suriel asked me to let him out.
Something about how she wanted to show she wasn't afraid of him? Like, that's what she told me. And well, she's a Watcher, so she could stop him if he did anything bad. So I did it.
...I thought if she saw how he is then she'd wise up and be afraid of both of us, but if anything it just made her more determined to help me.
For a while, yeah? I mean, I haven't exactly been doing that great for a while now. I'm kinda being held together by the fact that I need to be the strong one for other people right now.
[His self-loathing is less-strong than it was before, but it's still there.]
...but people keep telling me they care about me, so I'm doing better than I was. If I really was a monster they wouldn't care so much, I don't think.
... [Rin isn't supposed to be the one saying "I'm kinda being held together by the fact that I need to be the strong one for other people right now". That's Yukio's role.]
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Date: 2021-11-21 06:14 pm (UTC)...I thought if she saw how he is then she'd wise up and be afraid of both of us, but if anything it just made her more determined to help me.
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Date: 2021-11-21 07:12 pm (UTC)[His self-loathing is less-strong than it was before, but it's still there.]
...but people keep telling me they care about me, so I'm doing better than I was. If I really was a monster they wouldn't care so much, I don't think.
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Date: 2021-11-25 03:36 pm (UTC)You're not a monster, nii-san.