Yeah. He's...possessive, I guess. It's not about who he's friends with, it's more that he sees everyone from the game we were in as 'his' and is mad someone...er...okay this is gonna sound bad, but it's kinda like if you break a kid's toy and they get mad over it? That's what it's like.
[Demon!Rin is about as emotionally mature as a toddler so it's a fair comparison.]
He keeps trying to say that killing the culprit is the right idea but I know that's wrong, so don't worry. I won't do anything crazy at trial, promise.
[Rin honestly feels like a hole has been ripped in his chest right now. And he actually did have a hole ripped in his chest 24 hours ago, so he should know!]
[He's a little shit sometimes but he honestly wants people to like him. What teenager doesn't?]
I just...I don't wanna let anyone down, but sometimes it feels like everyone who's dying is way smarter or better than me. I don't wanna die or anything, but I can't stop feeling like they should be here instead of me.
There is no one individual that is without question 'better' than another - for each of us are simply attempting to navigate our paths to the best of our ability. You possess a kindness than no other can replicate, and a perspective that is uniquely yours.
You will not disappoint anyone, Rin Okumura, as long as your heart guides you.
[He sighs, but it's more like he's exhaling the bad vibes. Mikazuki is right: kindness has always been his strength. He just has to use his kindness again to help in any way he can.]
It might be harder this time, to reach out to others. Last time we had to find the killers before they could admit to anything. This time, one the trial is over, they're free of the influence of the shadows. That'll make people less likely to talk.
... we may yet be looking for two shadows, just as we had been last week.
Some may say that others will be less likely to speak... or they are simply waiting for ones to find and ask them, so that they do not carry the burden in their hearts alone.
That's what I want, people shouldn't have to be alone in that. Killing's hard, you know? It weighs you down, there's no way people can carry it that easy.
[There are some who can, but Rin is thinking of his own experiences and how he still hasn't escaped the guilt he feels.]
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Date: 2022-07-09 01:11 am (UTC)[Rin his honestly tired too. He's sitting under one of the statues right now, it's one of the Watchers from his game.]
It's like...I feel angry and hurt all at the same time. Even 'he' is mad right now.
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Date: 2022-07-09 01:19 am (UTC)he will slowly move to approach]
The one inside you?
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Date: 2022-07-09 01:24 am (UTC)[Demon!Rin is about as emotionally mature as a toddler so it's a fair comparison.]
He keeps trying to say that killing the culprit is the right idea but I know that's wrong, so don't worry. I won't do anything crazy at trial, promise.
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Date: 2022-07-09 01:39 am (UTC)[all things considered? if trial goes right. or wrong, depending on who's asking.]
And you must feel as though you have lost a comrade.
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Date: 2022-07-09 01:55 am (UTC)He saved my life. Twice.
[So yeah. Definitely lost an important comrade.]
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Date: 2022-07-09 02:22 am (UTC).... I'm sure he was pleased to do it.
[to save someone as kind and hardworking as rin]
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Date: 2022-07-09 02:39 am (UTC)[He's a little shit sometimes but he honestly wants people to like him. What teenager doesn't?]
I just...I don't wanna let anyone down, but sometimes it feels like everyone who's dying is way smarter or better than me. I don't wanna die or anything, but I can't stop feeling like they should be here instead of me.
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Date: 2022-07-09 03:01 am (UTC)You need only be yourself.
There is no one individual that is without question 'better' than another - for each of us are simply attempting to navigate our paths to the best of our ability. You possess a kindness than no other can replicate, and a perspective that is uniquely yours.
You will not disappoint anyone, Rin Okumura, as long as your heart guides you.
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Date: 2022-07-09 03:48 am (UTC)[He sighs, but it's more like he's exhaling the bad vibes. Mikazuki is right: kindness has always been his strength. He just has to use his kindness again to help in any way he can.]
It might be harder this time, to reach out to others. Last time we had to find the killers before they could admit to anything. This time, one the trial is over, they're free of the influence of the shadows. That'll make people less likely to talk.
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Date: 2022-07-09 04:25 am (UTC)... we may yet be looking for two shadows, just as we had been last week.
Some may say that others will be less likely to speak... or they are simply waiting for ones to find and ask them, so that they do not carry the burden in their hearts alone.
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Date: 2022-07-09 05:01 am (UTC)[There are some who can, but Rin is thinking of his own experiences and how he still hasn't escaped the guilt he feels.]