... They didn't say why I was picked. But... the entire time, it felt like I had to do what they were saying, or else everything was doomed—by the hands of the other faction, that is. That this was necessary to protect the people I love, even if a necessary evil.
It wasn't until Xie Lian finally accused me in trial that my mind became clear again.
Essentially, yes. I believed the entire time that I had to do this.
... Susato had told me her team before. I didn't gain that knowledge out of nowhere. [...] ... And I also she knew she had killed. I had confronted it about her before, and she said as much as she could without actually confessing.
So, when you got hit by that effect, it made you think that you had to kill her specifically? Or just anyone who was a Celestial, and you picked her because you knew her team and the fact that she had killed already made it easier to justify?
...no judgement by the way, I get it. You got cursed with this shit. I just wanna find out as much as I can.
[honestly, in some ways, sympathy is the most painful thing to receive right now.]
Not easily. She certainly made me work for it, and had to keep speaking in riddles afterwards.
[...]
The latter. It was more my choice of who to go after. The angel didn't have any particular influence, besides... [a pause, as he tries to remember exactly how he felt] ... an expectation that yes, it would be better to pick someone on that faction. I don't know if I'd say it was the deciding factor, however.
... If it came down to it, I didn't think she would prefer for me to kill someone random over her. [a beat] Not that she wanted to die, either. She fought to the end.
[It's fine, he doesn't even take it as an insult. He really isn't the smartest person, other people have to be the brains in this murdergame. But their brains keep dying so it might have to be the heart that finds a way to bring everyone home.]
She said something similar to that, you know. I don't see where being kind is special enough to get this much praise, but it's alright. It's what I can do, so I'll keep doing it, for everyone's sake.
[He really wants to save everyone here. Even the people he's mad at right now.]
...don't tell me their names obviously, but did you find any other killers?
Yeah, well, I have a lot of ugliness in me too. It only seems fair to give everyone a chance, when I'm only here because others gave me so many chances in the past.
[Kindness begets kindness. He likes to think that his father would be proud of him, if he saw him today.]
If you see them tonight, will you tell them to come talk to me in private? I wanna help them, and we can use a code or something so that I'll know you sent them to me and I won't ask anything of them that'll get them in trouble. I just want to help them, if I can.
... Well, I learned only when they came to see me earlier tonight, so I'm probably not going to see them again. Unless you want to post some kind of public message on my behalf, urging them to visit me again?
How about you, uh, send them a message from the other side? If you send it as soon as you get there we should get them pretty fast yeah? Because I'd fuck up a public message and scare 'em away.
Hm... well, it might get censored, which is the concern...
[hold on. he takes out a pen and piece of paper, since he has those on him, before scribbling down a message and handing it to rin.]
Try posting this somewhere it can be seen. It's not as if I'm going anywhere tonight.
[the paper reads:
To the one who came to see me tonight and whom I spoke with about the note, there's something else I need to discuss with you before tomorrow. - Rochalízo]
Edited (i am so sorry) Date: 2021-11-07 05:07 am (UTC)
Well...it'll have to be something that won't get censored. Maybe if you just tell them to tell me that you sent them to me? That way your message can just be "go talk to Rin, and tell him I told you to talk to him."
You gotta talk to Susato, when you get over there. Got it? No avoiding the conversation just because it's difficult. You find her, talk to her, and make amends. Okay?
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Date: 2021-11-07 02:52 am (UTC)It wasn't until Xie Lian finally accused me in trial that my mind became clear again.
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Date: 2021-11-07 03:18 am (UTC)And...did it make it so you knew everyone's teams, or did you just happen to already know what team Susato was on?
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Date: 2021-11-07 03:22 am (UTC)... Susato had told me her team before. I didn't gain that knowledge out of nowhere. [...] ... And I also she knew she had killed. I had confronted it about her before, and she said as much as she could without actually confessing.
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Date: 2021-11-07 03:26 am (UTC)[Rin, an idiot, who probably missed the hints.]
So, when you got hit by that effect, it made you think that you had to kill her specifically? Or just anyone who was a Celestial, and you picked her because you knew her team and the fact that she had killed already made it easier to justify?
...no judgement by the way, I get it. You got cursed with this shit. I just wanna find out as much as I can.
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Date: 2021-11-07 03:36 am (UTC)Not easily. She certainly made me work for it, and had to keep speaking in riddles afterwards.
[...]
The latter. It was more my choice of who to go after. The angel didn't have any particular influence, besides... [a pause, as he tries to remember exactly how he felt] ... an expectation that yes, it would be better to pick someone on that faction. I don't know if I'd say it was the deciding factor, however.
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Date: 2021-11-07 03:55 am (UTC)[Which is probably why she didn't force it when Rin didn't catch on.
But oh, that explanation. It makes his heart ache for Rochalizo.]
What was the deciding factor then? Was she the only Celestial you knew?
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Date: 2021-11-07 03:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-07 04:03 am (UTC)[This is really fucking tragic oh my god.]
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:07 am (UTC)well! he doesn't have anything to say to that.]
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:21 am (UTC)Your daemon...is it stuck now?
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:32 am (UTC)Yes. It became stuck the moment Susato died, near the beginning of trial.
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:40 am (UTC)That's how you knew when she died, isn't it? You felt THAT.
...it was the same for me too. When Tsuru died, Rinkou got stuck. That's how Susato and I were trying to find people who had killed.
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:42 am (UTC)... She told me. I've been helping with that endeavour.
[a pause, before he manages a weak smile.]
You're not really the smartest person [sorry rin, he's blunt] but she thought very highly of you. Never let go of your kind heart.
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:47 am (UTC)She said something similar to that, you know. I don't see where being kind is special enough to get this much praise, but it's alright. It's what I can do, so I'll keep doing it, for everyone's sake.
[He really wants to save everyone here. Even the people he's mad at right now.]
...don't tell me their names obviously, but did you find any other killers?
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:51 am (UTC)[...]
One person confirmed for me that their daemon no longer changes.
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:56 am (UTC)[Kindness begets kindness. He likes to think that his father would be proud of him, if he saw him today.]
If you see them tonight, will you tell them to come talk to me in private? I wanna help them, and we can use a code or something so that I'll know you sent them to me and I won't ask anything of them that'll get them in trouble. I just want to help them, if I can.
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-07 05:02 am (UTC)[Welp.]
How about you, uh, send them a message from the other side? If you send it as soon as you get there we should get them pretty fast yeah? Because I'd fuck up a public message and scare 'em away.
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Date: 2021-11-07 05:05 am (UTC)[hold on. he takes out a pen and piece of paper, since he has those on him, before scribbling down a message and handing it to rin.]
Try posting this somewhere it can be seen. It's not as if I'm going anywhere tonight.
[the paper reads:
To the one who came to see me tonight and whom I spoke with about the note, there's something else I need to discuss with you before tomorrow. - Rochalízo]
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Date: 2021-11-07 05:12 am (UTC)I'll go post it with the other notes, people saw those quickly enough.
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Date: 2021-11-07 05:16 am (UTC)What do you want the code to be?
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Date: 2021-11-07 05:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-07 05:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-07 05:23 am (UTC)[Yukio should learn that lesson.]
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Date: 2021-11-07 05:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-07 04:23 pm (UTC)[And this is suddenly a very serious look.]
You gotta talk to Susato, when you get over there. Got it? No avoiding the conversation just because it's difficult. You find her, talk to her, and make amends. Okay?
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:26 pm (UTC)Of course. I have no intention of running from what I've done.
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Date: 2021-11-07 04:31 pm (UTC)[And after that, he sighs and gives Rochalizo a gentler look.]
It'll be alright. Tomorrow's gonna suck a lot, but it'll get better. We're gonna save you, and everyone else too.
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Date: 2021-11-07 05:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-07 06:31 pm (UTC)[He holds out his fist. Fistbump?]
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Date: 2021-11-11 06:10 pm (UTC)he pauses for a bit, but he will give... rin an awkward fistbump... albeit with an expression that suggests he very much has no idea what he's doing]