[It's okay. He's sure she saw it, but she deserves more than just peeking in and overhearing, so...]
I'm sorry. You kept trying to tell me without actually telling me, didn't you? And I missed it, each and every time.
[But she hadn't been lonely, because he was supportive regardless. Even with the several degrees of separation.]
But you were working really hard over there, yeah? I can't imagine you sat around and did nothing. So thanks. For everything you've done, on both sides of things. You're really strong, you know that?
[She smiles a little in return. It's a sweet sentiment, one that's nice to hear.]
. . . I must admit, I'm not sure I was. By the time we spoke about it, I - I was rather resigned to needing to not communicate about it. [. . .] Nothing forced me to lie to you and say Ryutaro still changed; I simply thought I'd been a little too reckless and decided to do it. And then I felt badly, because I cherished the trust you placed in me.
[Anyway.]
I know you have been working hard, and I'm so grateful for that. [. . .] Ah, by the way. I was your pen-pal, if you didn't know.
Yeah? I must've given you a heart attack when I came to you about that letter then, huh?
[I mean, he suspected it after he found out she killed Rex, but he had doubts about Susato's ability to write swears down on paper.]
But it's okay, don't feel bad about having to be reckless or lie in a way. I still trust you regardless. It was never about punishing the killers anyway.
Yes! [Anticipating his bracket text, she adds - ] You used that language at trial, if you recall. You said, why don't they write a letter and tell us "I didn't get --" [She trails off, lol.] And I thought it might come through if I used that phrasing, as you wouldn't think I had written that.
Anyway - [She laughs a little.] No, I was glad of it. I got to propose all of the questions I would want to answer but that no one had asked.
[It was hard, hearing some of what happened to him after.]
I don't think we could have gotten here without you, but I won't argue about it. I felt like the one contribution I could make was letting us understand what was happening to those visited by angels, and I tried to get that across, so thank you for wanting to hear it.
[He's reminded of Susato's letter again, and how he's been holding that message close to his heart ever since he read it. 'The truth matters, not the punishment'.]
I spent my whole life being misunderstood by people. All they saw was my temper and the stuff I'd break when I lost it. They were afraid of me.
I...didn't want anyone to feel lonely like that. Everyone just wants to be understood, yeah? So I had to try to understand everyone. To understand why they did what they did, and how the angels visiting affected things. Because nobody's truly a bad person, yeah? Everyone's just...people.
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Date: 2021-11-20 03:21 pm (UTC)I'm sorry. You kept trying to tell me without actually telling me, didn't you? And I missed it, each and every time.
[But she hadn't been lonely, because he was supportive regardless. Even with the several degrees of separation.]
But you were working really hard over there, yeah? I can't imagine you sat around and did nothing. So thanks. For everything you've done, on both sides of things. You're really strong, you know that?
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Date: 2021-11-20 03:55 pm (UTC). . . I must admit, I'm not sure I was. By the time we spoke about it, I - I was rather resigned to needing to not communicate about it. [. . .] Nothing forced me to lie to you and say Ryutaro still changed; I simply thought I'd been a little too reckless and decided to do it. And then I felt badly, because I cherished the trust you placed in me.
[Anyway.]
I know you have been working hard, and I'm so grateful for that. [. . .] Ah, by the way. I was your pen-pal, if you didn't know.
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Date: 2021-11-20 04:03 pm (UTC)[I mean, he suspected it after he found out she killed Rex, but he had doubts about Susato's ability to write swears down on paper.]
But it's okay, don't feel bad about having to be reckless or lie in a way. I still trust you regardless. It was never about punishing the killers anyway.
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Date: 2021-11-20 04:06 pm (UTC)Anyway - [She laughs a little.] No, I was glad of it. I got to propose all of the questions I would want to answer but that no one had asked.
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Date: 2021-11-20 04:13 pm (UTC)[And here he is, appreciating Susato for her plans once again.]
So, thanks. For everything. I dunno if we could've come as far as we did without your help.
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Date: 2021-11-20 04:57 pm (UTC)[It was hard, hearing some of what happened to him after.]
I don't think we could have gotten here without you, but I won't argue about it. I felt like the one contribution I could make was letting us understand what was happening to those visited by angels, and I tried to get that across, so thank you for wanting to hear it.
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Date: 2021-11-20 05:39 pm (UTC)I spent my whole life being misunderstood by people. All they saw was my temper and the stuff I'd break when I lost it. They were afraid of me.
I...didn't want anyone to feel lonely like that. Everyone just wants to be understood, yeah? So I had to try to understand everyone. To understand why they did what they did, and how the angels visiting affected things. Because nobody's truly a bad person, yeah? Everyone's just...people.
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Date: 2021-11-20 06:20 pm (UTC)[Aww, Rin.]
I'm glad we were able to try to understand each other. I feel I understand much more about you, and - I'm so happy to have met you.
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Date: 2021-11-21 03:47 am (UTC)[He actually sounds kind of emotional about this? All he's ever wanted was friends who understood him, so.]
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Date: 2021-11-21 01:14 pm (UTC)I hope that you will come and see us, yes?
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Date: 2021-11-21 04:59 pm (UTC)