[ this is... so much more than he thought was going to be, and he's never been very good at listening for too long — to explanations, speeches, stories, anything. he always gets hung up on some point and spends too long thinking about it and then realizes he's missed everything that was said after that.
that's still the case, but he tries his best to follow. and... well, it's not like anything about this story is that subtle, and rin doesn't know enough complicated words for him to get lost on vocabulary questions, so he gets it. ]
...Ah.
[ ...though that doesn't mean he has any idea what to say. ]
That... helps explain some things, I guess. Thanks.
...well, there's one more thing that needs to be said. But it's not Sebastian who needs to say it.]
...I'm sorry. For everything that's happened, and for how people keep hurting you. For how the people I care about keep hurting you. I know that doesn't fix anything, but...it's not right. And I'm sorry it keeps happening.
[That one is hard to apologize for, because Rin still feels like he didn't do anything wrong there. Not telling people that Diluc murdered was, in his mind, objectively the right choice. Everyone's reaction at that trial just proved the point to him.
But Rin can also recognize that Sebastian is still hurting from it, and there is a part where Rin can recognize that he was wrong, so.]
I think...what I should've done was try to get Diluc to tell the truth himself. Before it came out in trial. Once he was free from the shadows, he should've spoken up. He definitely should've told Bucky, and he should've made things right by admitting to everyone what he did. It wasn't my secret to tell, but keeping it a secret was wrong in the first place.
The same goes for all the killers too, though I didn't know all of them.
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Date: 2022-07-25 07:24 pm (UTC)that's still the case, but he tries his best to follow. and... well, it's not like anything about this story is that subtle, and rin doesn't know enough complicated words for him to get lost on vocabulary questions, so he gets it. ]
...Ah.
[ ...though that doesn't mean he has any idea what to say. ]
That... helps explain some things, I guess. Thanks.
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Date: 2022-07-27 02:26 am (UTC)[It's okay, nothing really needs to be said.
...well, there's one more thing that needs to be said. But it's not Sebastian who needs to say it.]
...I'm sorry. For everything that's happened, and for how people keep hurting you. For how the people I care about keep hurting you. I know that doesn't fix anything, but...it's not right. And I'm sorry it keeps happening.
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Date: 2022-07-29 12:41 am (UTC)The only one I really wanted from you was for... you know, not telling me the truth about what Diluc did...
[ it's certainly not the only thing he was upset about, but it's one of the few things he thinks rin actually had any control over. ]
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Date: 2022-07-29 01:10 am (UTC)[That one is hard to apologize for, because Rin still feels like he didn't do anything wrong there. Not telling people that Diluc murdered was, in his mind, objectively the right choice. Everyone's reaction at that trial just proved the point to him.
But Rin can also recognize that Sebastian is still hurting from it, and there is a part where Rin can recognize that he was wrong, so.]
I think...what I should've done was try to get Diluc to tell the truth himself. Before it came out in trial. Once he was free from the shadows, he should've spoken up. He definitely should've told Bucky, and he should've made things right by admitting to everyone what he did. It wasn't my secret to tell, but keeping it a secret was wrong in the first place.
The same goes for all the killers too, though I didn't know all of them.
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Date: 2022-07-29 01:17 am (UTC)...Yeah. I think so too.
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Date: 2022-07-29 01:30 am (UTC)[Very slight salt here. He really is surrounded by stinky adults.]