Suite Dreams - Sebastian

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[unbested]

[ His eyes widen halfway through that first part, and he only half hears anything after it. ]

W-wait, you... you knew he was the reason Bucky died?

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[This gets him to stop too.]

I didn't know until after the trial. I'm sorry, if I'd have known at the time I would've said something.

[unbested]

Even after that, it— I've been beating myself up for the last two weeks for not being able to figure it out!

[ rin had seen for himself what a mess he was after that. ]

And what Molly said was true, too! Alphinaud and Bucky and both of their hostages— I mean, we shouldn't be executing anyone because of the stupid shadows, but since we don't have a choice... more people already died because of him than because of Kazunari! Why didn't we vote for him last week?!

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It's- it's not about how many people someone's killed! If it was, then you might as well vote me out instead!

[There are plenty of people here with higher body counts than Rin, but he's not one to blame other people when he can just use himself as a handy example.]

[unbested]

I'm— I'm talking about here! But... but why shouldn't it be about that?! You get a harsher sentence for two murders than one! That's obvious!!

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So when we find out whoever murdered Aikawa or Kaeya are you gonna say the same thing? That we should vote for them next week because they already killed, so it's fine?

And why limit it to here, huh? Are other murders somehow okay because they didn't happen here?!

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Nobody else besides their victims died because of them, because Kazunari and Sheila were guilty too! He's the only one who successfully framed an innocent person!

And— no?? But I don't know what everyone did in their own worlds, and they all work differently anyway! You can't compare like, me and Dimitri, because he had to fight a war and I didn't!

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What good is it gonna do to vote him out then, huh?! We messed up! It already happened, we can't go back and fix things! Killing Diluc won't bring Bucky back!

Besides, he probably won't even be around next week to vote out anyway, someone's probably gonna kill him next week because 'his hostage is safe so it's fine'!

[His face is starting to feel hot again, and he sniffs and reaches up to wipe at his eyes.]

[unbested]

It's not gonna do good, but I'd rather vote for him than another nice person who was only responsible for one death instead of two!

Ugh...

[ honestly he hopes that's what happens if someone has to die again, but he manages to hold himself back from saying so, because seeing rin start to cry is making him cry more. ]

...Did he tell Bucky?

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[This is going to be a feedback loop of crying, I can feel it in my soul.

I don't know, it's not like I asked Diluc all the people he told! I haven't told anyone about it!

[He's been carrying this for two very, very long weeks.]

I just...shit, I can't stand the way you're talking right now. And you don't even know how horrible it sounds, do you?

[He wants to be mad at Sebastian, but he can't be. Ultimately it's not really Sebastian's fault, Rin knows Sebastian probably grew up with the kind of life where he never saw how grey the world actually is. And he's had time to get attached to Sebastian so he can't just call him a stupid asshole and slam the door in his face.]

[unbested]

What?!

[ he truly does not see how "two is more than one, so two deaths is worse than one death" is a point with room for argument in this scenario. ]

I'm not the one who sounds bad! And it's not "all the people he told", it's Bucky! If he told his friends but couldn't confess to the guy whose life he was stealing then he's a jerk! If he did, then... okay, I guess!

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[It's not, the problem is Rin is thinking about people's feelings rather than it just being a numbers game.]

Did you ask him if he told Bucky?

[unbested]

No?? I just found out he did it!!!

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He admitted to it at the trial!

[unbested]

Yeah, while we were all busy crying!!! You had two weeks!!

[aono]

I've been working on ways to bring everyone back to life, not asking questions about past murders!

[unbested]

[ you can do both!! ]

Well, what have you found?!

[aono]

No clear answer yet, but I have some of the pieces. And I think the Staff might be able to contact the dead so I gotta ask them about that.

[unbested]

Well... cool. It'd be nice if you shared those too.

[aono]

I got all this stuff on Thursday night, I haven't had time to share it yet! And shit, you never shared what you found with me!

[unbested]

Ugh... I didn't even get to read what we got from the thing until days later...

[ ...When Sheila brought him tea because he was crying and looked at it with him.

And now he's tearing up again at that, so he just sniffs and turns away. ]

...Whatever. We can talk about that stuff later. I'm going to bed.

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[When he says that, Rin makes a 'tch' sound and reaches out to take Sebastian's hand.]

Fine, c'mon then. Let's sleep on it.

[He is? Attempting to get Sebastian to stay the night??? His bed is big enough for a sleepover but still.]

[unbested]

W-what?

[aono]

It's late, and you said you were tired. I'm tired too. So c'mon. I'll kick Rinkou back to her bed so there's room for you too.

[unbested]

[ ???? ]

Wh— I mean... you still have the beanbag chair?

[ and a whole other bed besides that, technically??? ]

A-and anyway, I'm still kind of mad right now!