[He winces a little at that, because he instantly knows what Tsurumaru means.]
Yeah. And the thing is, I'm pretty sure Tsuru could've beaten him easily in a fight. He's strong, but he didn't have any of his demon strength. Just a little bit of our fire and the few months of sword training I had at that point. But Tsuru just...didn't fight back. Or he did, but wasn't trying to kill him, or something.
[He's looking towards one of the residence buildings now. Even if the fire damage isn't there anymore, he can still see it in his mind. The guilt weighing on his heart makes his frown deepen.]
When I got control back, he was already dying. But he didn't look mad or anything. He just...smiled at me. And said he was sorry.
Yeah. I don't know how he forgave me so easily, but he did.
[It's something, considering Rin still carries the guilt of what happened to this day, and probably will for a long time after. How much does another's forgiveness matter when he hasn't forgiven himself yet?]
But that's why I've been weird around you. And why I was the way I was at trial. This place brings back a lot of bad memories, but...well, you should know.
Yeah. I don't think I'd be who I am today if it didn't happen, but it's still hard to think about sometimes.
[He got serious about learning to control his demon half because of that horrible accident, and he made an honest attempt to see eye-to-eye with the other killers in his game because he knew how lonely it was to stand up there and be voted out. Those horrible events have shaped him into the better person he is today.]
...anyway, thanks for listening. I'll try to be better about it and not be so weird going forward, yeah?
[This is a different Tsurumaru than the one Rin both cares for and feels unworthy of being around, but he's still the same person somehow. Perhaps this attempt at clearing the air will help going forward, or at least Rin is hoping it will make it easier for him to talk to Tsurumaru.]
You don't have to force yourself. I understand it must be stranger than I initially thought.
[ he didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable. tsuru is used to being annoying, but there's been enough trauma to last a lifetime between all of the people here. ]
... but I wouldn't mind getting to know you better.
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Date: 2022-06-26 05:03 am (UTC)Yeah. And the thing is, I'm pretty sure Tsuru could've beaten him easily in a fight. He's strong, but he didn't have any of his demon strength. Just a little bit of our fire and the few months of sword training I had at that point. But Tsuru just...didn't fight back. Or he did, but wasn't trying to kill him, or something.
[He's looking towards one of the residence buildings now. Even if the fire damage isn't there anymore, he can still see it in his mind. The guilt weighing on his heart makes his frown deepen.]
When I got control back, he was already dying. But he didn't look mad or anything. He just...smiled at me. And said he was sorry.
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Date: 2022-06-26 05:20 am (UTC)it's a little strange, hearing about it. not in a way that's uncomfortable, but tsuru can almost picture it. ]
I'm relieved that you were still close after.
[ tsuru remembers how friendly rin was their first day here, when he was under the impression this was the tsuru he knew. ]
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Date: 2022-06-26 05:32 am (UTC)[It's something, considering Rin still carries the guilt of what happened to this day, and probably will for a long time after. How much does another's forgiveness matter when he hasn't forgiven himself yet?]
But that's why I've been weird around you. And why I was the way I was at trial. This place brings back a lot of bad memories, but...well, you should know.
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Date: 2022-06-26 05:09 pm (UTC)but he'll nod, seeing the location in a new light. ]
I get it. Even if everything turns out okay in the end, it doesn't make the journey to that point any less difficult. Right?
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Date: 2022-06-26 06:30 pm (UTC)[He got serious about learning to control his demon half because of that horrible accident, and he made an honest attempt to see eye-to-eye with the other killers in his game because he knew how lonely it was to stand up there and be voted out. Those horrible events have shaped him into the better person he is today.]
...anyway, thanks for listening. I'll try to be better about it and not be so weird going forward, yeah?
[This is a different Tsurumaru than the one Rin both cares for and feels unworthy of being around, but he's still the same person somehow. Perhaps this attempt at clearing the air will help going forward, or at least Rin is hoping it will make it easier for him to talk to Tsurumaru.]
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Date: 2022-06-26 07:05 pm (UTC)[ he didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable. tsuru is used to being annoying, but there's been enough trauma to last a lifetime between all of the people here. ]
... but I wouldn't mind getting to know you better.
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Date: 2022-06-27 01:40 am (UTC)[Getting to know each other better, he means. He's smiling a little as he says that too.]
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Date: 2022-06-27 03:24 pm (UTC)[ he holds his hand out. ]
Then let's properly introduce each other. I am Tsurumaru Kuninaga.
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Date: 2022-07-01 04:46 am (UTC)Rin Okumura. It's nice to meet you.
[Again. Or something.]
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Date: 2022-07-01 01:06 pm (UTC)shakes it very vigorously!!! ]
Now we should find something to snack on.
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Date: 2022-07-02 04:59 am (UTC)Rin's a bit discombobulated from it, but he's grinning nonetheless.]
Alright, let's go get something.
[And back to the hotel they can go!]