Suite Dreams - Cloud

[aono]

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[aono]

[Cloud you have a mom you should know!]

A little over a year now. I thought I'd moved past the whole 'I wish dad were here' thing last game, but I guess not.

[He lets out a sigh. He's trying to be reliable like the adults but he keeps failing at it!]

[skyagain]

[ his mom is five years dead and he left to join the army two years before that, it's very different ]

... Maybe it's not a feeling you can get over, when things are bad. Missing a parent. [ maybe? again. why is he here. he is not good at this. ]

[aono]

[Cloud your tragic backstory...]

What about you? Do you ever miss your parents?

[He does not know if they are alive or dead, but he's wondering if Cloud misses not being able to talk to them in general. Cloud's not that much older than him after all.]

[skyagain]

... I don't know. Don't really think about it that much.

[ and also he does not really want to get into his super murdered mom to a teenager ]

[aono]

[It's fine Rin's dad got super murdered too! (no)

But Rin will accept that answer, and he sighs and lets his head drop a bit.]

Maybe I shouldn't think about it much either, and it won't get so heavy.

[He rubs at his face, like that will freshen him up somehow, and then he sits up again.]

But I promised to explain some stuff to you, didn't I? Guess I should do that now, since we're here.

[skyagain]

... Sure, if you want.

[ he has admittedly with everything forgotten a little about rin saying he wanted to explain some things after trial. ]

[aono]

[Rin is kind of glad that people keep forgetting that, but it's something that's always on his mind. It can't ever not be, that voice will always exist in the back of his mind, laughing at his failures.]

So I'm half-demon, yeah? Human mom, demon dad- though my actual Dad isn't that demon, Dad is the priest who adopted me and Yukio after we were born. Long story, not important right now.

[Someday Rin will realize that story is actually very important, but today is not that day.]

Anyway, because I'm half demon my heart is actually split in two. So I got a human heart and a demon heart. The 'me' that's always been out and about here is the human half of my heart, just so you know. You'll never meet the demon half, and you definitely don't want to anyway.

But that's what I meant by 'we'. It's...kinda complicated, since we're both the same person in the same body, but also kind of separate? But yeah. That's what's going on. No shadows, just weird half-demon shit.

[skyagain]

[ he squints like he thinks he has heard a similar story to the first part but maybe not! maybe there are a lot of priests that adopt babies.

the rest of it is... a lot. rin you have so many bits of your soul just all over the place damn ]

So does he... talk to you, then?

[aono]

Sometimes, but he never has anything good to say. He's just like me, but if I had no impulse control whatsoever. So he's always telling me to do stupid shit that'll get me in trouble.

[Remember C*ke ninja? Think that, but all the time, even with intrusive thoughts that Rin wouldn't follow up on normally.]

And he thinks he's the best at everything and wants me to fight anyone who's even slightly shitty to me. There's a reason I don't let him out like, ever.

[skyagain]

So ... Sort of like giving a voice to all your worst ideas. Bet he doesn't take being locked away well, either.

[aono]

Not really. I had to work really hard to get that kinda control too. I had to learn how to meditate, do you have any idea how hard that is to do?

[skyagain]

... For you? Yeah, I guess it would be.

[ rin is so all over the place. ]