[It's something almost unfathomable to Rin, who was raised in a church that praised one god as all-knowing and always correct. Even when he grew older and started to think that religion wasn't right, he still never considered that the gods might be fallible. He thought his perceptions of religion were his own troubles, not troubles with the religion.
But seeing Xie Lian here in front of him, admitting to this, it makes it all feel more real.Xie Lian is a god, or so he claims, and he struggles with the same things Rin struggles with. They're all struggling, is it? Well, maybe they can struggle together.]
He can see my heart and he knows all of the things that bother me the most. I hate how I always mess things up, I hate how violent I get sometimes, and I hate how I keep failing to save the people most important to me. Those are the things he keeps picking at, trying to wear me down so he can take control again.
But you struggle with that too, huh? Then...it doesn't feel as lonely. And if you can find ways to keep it quiet, then maybe I can too.
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Date: 2021-10-31 07:19 pm (UTC)But seeing Xie Lian here in front of him, admitting to this, it makes it all feel more real.Xie Lian is a god, or so he claims, and he struggles with the same things Rin struggles with. They're all struggling, is it? Well, maybe they can struggle together.]
He can see my heart and he knows all of the things that bother me the most. I hate how I always mess things up, I hate how violent I get sometimes, and I hate how I keep failing to save the people most important to me. Those are the things he keeps picking at, trying to wear me down so he can take control again.
But you struggle with that too, huh? Then...it doesn't feel as lonely. And if you can find ways to keep it quiet, then maybe I can too.