I know, I'm not the only one here who's killed. But I-
[Part of him wants to stop talking about it, but he knows he needs to. Talking about it is the only way to get the gremlins out of his mind.]
When I got voted out and had to be executed, it was my twin brother who got forced to do it. But he- he refused to let me die, so he...
[It's still too painful to say directly, and Rin has to stop to take a steadying breath. But that breath doesn't really help that much, he's getting emotional already.]
That's why I gotta save him here. He died for me. Me! An idiot who got in over his head and killed someone! Someone so dangerous that I could kill again without even realizing it! So I gotta- I can't let him be kept as a hostage forever.
cw: talk of past suicide
[Part of him wants to stop talking about it, but he knows he needs to. Talking about it is the only way to get the gremlins out of his mind.]
When I got voted out and had to be executed, it was my twin brother who got forced to do it. But he- he refused to let me die, so he...
[It's still too painful to say directly, and Rin has to stop to take a steadying breath. But that breath doesn't really help that much, he's getting emotional already.]
That's why I gotta save him here. He died for me. Me! An idiot who got in over his head and killed someone! Someone so dangerous that I could kill again without even realizing it! So I gotta- I can't let him be kept as a hostage forever.